Not much to say today, i didn't sleep almost anything last night, mostly because of the nightmares that i have in nost of the nights...

Not the kind of nightmares when a monster comes and eat you alive, or rapes the flesh offyour body.... but the ones where you realise you have everything to loose, and your doing nothing to keep the things and persons you love....

i keep loosing the control of those things, when i shouldn't even be questning my self about if control is necessary, cause theses are the things that should append naturaly...

Long time passed since i could sit down with all of my friends and just listen to them talking, and than wouldn't botther me, not even a little..... but now, my head almost cracks just by earing them laughing and stuff, it's pretty weird... i just wish these feelings would pass soon...

But please, don't miss understand.... just because i can't stand some of you, i'll always be there for you all.... and when the time comes, i'll be there to save you from hem... (metaphoracly speaking) (Sorry if i punch some of you in the face with this words)